Dear CHIARA Léa

Dear Chiara Léa,

My little super beautiful, smart and adorable little girl. You are a wonderful gift to mama, papa and to your brother. We love you dearly. What a fun summer we had! We traveled to Italy this summer and how fun it was. I hope you enjoyed your second summer as much as we did. But I’m sure you did. You enjoyed the beach fun with your brother. You turned one year old, and got baptized. I can’t count how many “prosecco’s” we’d opened to cheer with family and friends from Padova to Ancona to the South in Bitonto! Like your brother you are a big blessing to us! Papa’s lucky charm. You don’t know it yet but papa passed his “concours” (french) for the top job! You are all assured of a bright future by now. Papa did really well because you guys are his inspiration. Without you, all will be vague and blurry.  Mama need to stay home to take care of you. But with you, our children, we knew we wanted to give you the best future you deserve! Only the best for you. Continue reading

SEUL SOUL

In the midst of darkness;

scrapped happiness;

no one’s business;

crap is all you see.

you chose positivity

but someone’s pull out negativity,

the battle is on going,

keep trying,

sometime’s it’s almost the end,

hang on to the rope,

I’ll hold your hand and never let go,

but you are “seul”

gotta hang for yourself,

and the life you made through,

you asked?

Is it worth it?

Is it worthy?

Is it me?

the “seul” me is the culprit;

the life has been taken away,

returning is not in bright sight,

who knows?

the stars’ the moon, and the universe in general,

shall I continue?

shall I know you?

Self? Self? Self?

Oh! you’ve been knackered,

stand up, stand tall, stand still,

fight all your falling pieces

until dawn, until unknown

no one will do

because you are “seul”.

Oh! how I love you!

will you fight for me too?

answers are deaf in the flowing river;

the wind blowing,

the biting cold is real and the leaves whisper to your ears

move on, move on,

everyday is an opportunity,

just live on,

you aren’t “seul”

you aren’t “seul”

you have the universe,

to chase and believe,

live on, live on,

stay still, stay strong,

go on, fight the battle,

because you are not “seul”

autumn feels

autumn feels

 

 

 

DEAR THOMA TWO

Dear Thomas Francesco,

First, don’t get mad about the title. We call you “TOMATO” because of your love for tomatoes, tomates, pomodoro, whatever we call it. During weekdays after your “creche” you always asked for tomato, carrot and cucumber and  by that, we love you for your love for vegetables.

I plan to write my feelings and dreams for you, so you can read this even when you are adult and if you are having rough times this serves as a reminder that you have a family, a mama and papa and now a sister who will always be there for you that you can always count on. I hope this will remind you that mama and papa love you very, very much. Continue reading

POST PARTUM HIVES

Hello everyone! Hope everyone is doing great.

I so wanted to write about this because there are very few articles about this on Internet especially for women who just gave birth experiencing this. I already wrote this long time ago when my hives are still in full bloom ;( but because time is my enemy it is only now that I was able to published.

So what is POST PARTUM HIVES? I am not aware of this until I experienced this by myself. We all knew what hives is. It is something you don’t want to have because of its itchiness and swollen skin. Hives can happen to everyone and according to what I’ve read it affects at least 20% of women after giving birth. Unfortunately, that includes me. It’s a mystery for me as I never had allergies in my life. It’s very disturbing and horrible. Continue reading

FEELING BLUE

Hello beautiful world! Yes, I am that positive! I still believe we live in a beautiful world. Hello beautiful people in this beautiful world! 😉 That’s more accurate, right?

Well, I am musing on some random thoughts lately that I decided to go back on my blog. I know, I know, it’s been a while that I have written my thoughts here. I hope this will be the start of my writing career again 😉

I have a lot of stories and experiences to share and I hope I’ll be able to share them here one by one. But just lately I am feeling blue that I can’t help to write them down here. I don’t know what it is about. I feel sad these past few days. Continue reading

EASY BREASTFEEDING wait, what, how? A first time mom’s guide to breastfeeding

I’d say there’s no formula on how you can keep cool and chill in breastfeeding because it all depends on you and your baby. Hello there wonderful people!

I’ve been wanting to write about my “first time mom” journey but you know I don’t hold my time anymore. It all depends on my little one’s mood. He’s been good lately and so the weather so most of the time I’d rather stay outside push the stroller and get some doze of vitamin D for the beginning of spring.

Even before I got pregnant I already knew I will breastfeed my baby. As every mother wants only the best for her child. I am so into it and I know I can do it. Looks so easy, right? Yes, it is! until I experienced it by myself. No, it’s not that easy at first? It was hard to begin with.

The night my son was born the hospital staffs immediately handed him to me to breastfeed. I felt like this is easy. I did my assignment after all. I read a lot about it, did my own research (a lot) so this is nothing. Until I am in the actual situation.  You know you can read everything you want up to the last note about your research but in the end the actual practice is very different. I thought breastfeeding is just “a walk in the park”, all you have to do is to put him/her in your breast and viola! you are feeding your baby. Unfortunately, that’s not my case. Of course when the baby was born he doesn’t know anything like how to latch. He doesn’t know where is your nipple and this also goes to the mother believe me what you have read and researched for like 9 months or more will be nothing in actual situation. Continue reading

LENTEN THOUGHTS

Hello beautiful people and hello beautiful planet!

Finally, spring has sprung. I so love it when the weather is changing especially the coming of spring because it signifies happy days outside. Beach, sun and sand soon. Summer is not that far though the blooming flowers of spring is beautiful in the eye. And it also means that whatever situation you are in right now it will not be forever and it will surely change in a couple of time. So if you are in a bad situation remember that no storm last forever and if  you are in a good one, enjoy while it last. Carpe Diem!

It’s Lenten season and I got some thoughts and reflections lately. I am not perfect and in fact I am very far from that but I always try to be good especially I am a mother to a wonderful baby boy.

I am not a very religious person but I do pray, a lot. I talk and write to God. Going to church everyday doesn’t mean you are nice if your soul is pure of anger and hatred. Praying is useless if you are hating. Continue reading