SEUL SOUL

pathway

In the midst of darkness;

scrapped happiness;

no one’s business;

crap is all you see.

you chose positivity

but someone’s pull out negativity,

the battle is on going,

keep trying,

sometime’s it’s almost the end,

hang on to the rope,

I’ll hold your hand and never let go,

but you are “seul”

gotta hang for yourself,

and the life you made through,

you asked?

Is it worth it?

Is it worthy?

Is it me?

the “seul” me is the culprit;

the life has been taken away,

returning is not in bright sight,

who knows?

the stars’ the moon, and the universe in general,

shall I continue?

shall I know you?

Self? Self? Self?

Oh! you’ve been knackered,

stand up, stand tall, stand still,

fight all your falling pieces

until dawn, until unknown

no one will do

because you are “seul”.

Oh! how I love you!

will you fight for me too?

answers are deaf in the flowing river;

the wind blowing,

the biting cold is real and the leaves whisper to your ears

move on, move on,

everyday is an opportunity,

just live on,

you aren’t “seul”

you aren’t “seul”

you have the universe,

to chase and believe,

live on, live on,

stay still, stay strong,

go on, fight the battle,

because you are not “seul”

autumn feels

autumn feels

 

 

 

DEAR TOMA TWO

Because you are happy with candle blowing we gave you another cake and candle

Dear Thomas Francesco,

First, don’t get mad about the title. We call you “TOMATO” because of your love for tomatoes, tomates, pomodoro, whatever we call it. During weekdays after your “creche” you always asked for tomato, carrot and cucumber and  by that, we love you for your love for vegetables.

I plan to write my feelings and dreams for you, so you can read this even when you are adult and if you are having rough times this serves as a reminder that you have a family, a mama and papa and now a sister who will always be there for you that you can always count on. I hope this will remind you that mama and papa love you very, very much. Continue reading

POST PARTUM HIVES

Hives (photo source: google)

Hello everyone! Hope everyone is doing great.

I so wanted to write about this because there are very few articles about this on Internet especially for women who just gave birth experiencing this. I already wrote this long time ago when my hives are still in full bloom ;( but because time is my enemy it is only now that I was able to published.

So what is POST PARTUM HIVES? I am not aware of this until I experienced this by myself. We all knew what hives is. It is something you don’t want to have because of its itchiness and swollen skin. Hives can happen to everyone and according to what I’ve read it affects at least 20% of women after giving birth. Unfortunately, that includes me. It’s a mystery for me as I never had allergies in my life. It’s very disturbing and horrible. Continue reading

FEELING BLUE

Happiness in my hand.

Hello beautiful world! Yes, I am that positive! I still believe we live in a beautiful world. Hello beautiful people in this beautiful world! 😉 That’s more accurate, right?

Well, I am musing on some random thoughts lately that I decided to go back on my blog. I know, I know, it’s been a while that I have written my thoughts here. I hope this will be the start of my writing career again 😉

I have a lot of stories and experiences to share and I hope I’ll be able to share them here one by one. But just lately I am feeling blue that I can’t help to write them down here. I don’t know what it is about. I feel sad these past few days. Continue reading